Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed.
I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head.
When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus.
These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between.
My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished.
My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world.
The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war.
For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person.
I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought.
Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours.
I can't wait for you all to hear it.
"Hi Ren" keeps growing, reaching #18 in trending music videos in the UK, with over 5M listens in the first week alone.
Check it out below and follow Ren on social media for his latest releases.
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JMAYZ shares video for new track “Rocks at The Pen” featuring Flyboi Peeples and Shoplift Spittz
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Raised in the small town of Olney, Maryland MNA (Matthew Nino Azcuy) watched and listened to all of the greatest rappers and musicians during the 1990’s and early 2000’s. During this golden age of music and music videos, Azcuy was inspired by both rappers and rock groups alike, and when he was sixteen years old decided to make his own music. After years of finding his sound, he teamed up with local producer nemo, to make his album “Diamond Dog”. Matthew Nino Azcuy, who prefers to just go by MNA, was born and raised in the small town of Olney, Maryland during the 1990s and early 2000s and has taken great inspiration from the great names of this time for his work as a result. Indeed, his music's unique energy and passion often come from these early inspirations, offering a unique blend of the rock and rap genres to create an electronic-type sound that's wonderfully unique. MNA's first ventures in the music field occurred at the age of sixteen when he first ventured into music writing. However, it took years for him to truly find that one unique sound that he could call "his" - but we're so glad that he got there in the end! In fact, music writing was something of a saving grace for Azcuy, who turned to the comfort offered by songwriting after a difficult period in his life, and he credits both God and his music for helping him to get back on track and strive for greater pursuits. As well as being an accomplished singer and songwriter, MNA has also dabbled in several other creative fields as a professional movie actor and published author, with numerous works of poetry to his name. Some of his previous musical albums include titles such as Black Flag, Paradise, and For You. We wish MNA all the best with his musical career, and with over 1000 monthly listens on Spotify alone, it's fair to say he's an up-and-coming artist to keep an eye on! MNA proves himself to be a rather versatile performer, capable of sincere, emotionally expressive R&B crooning, and casual, charismatic rapping. He often incorporates bits of humor into his delivery, which keeps the vibe fresh and fun.
Mercenary by MNA is an album about the dark fantasy world in which rap culture and the entertainment industry exist. Mercenary, which compares a businessman to a gun for hire, is an album and story that depicts the battle inside of every entrepreneur. How fighting for one’s money, power, career, legacy, and place in the world can often resemble the personal sacrifice of war and soldiers, albeit for profit. This album was inspired by the personal successes and two-year journey of rap artist MNA and his music production company MNA Industries in the music world. "Mercenary" was recorded by City's Best Sounds in Olney, MD and was released on January 22, 2022.
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Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/matthewninoazcuy/sets/mercenary?si=247c29b00ec44d469e31f907080aef04&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing
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Jaymellz is a singer, rapper, songwriter, and producer from South Carolina. Formerly known as J_Mello, Jay has worked with names like DJ Smallz, Soulja Boy, and appeared on mixtapes hosted by Gillie Da Kid and Bow Wow. This is his single “High Hopes” A message to his doubters and naysayers letting them know there’s no stopping him.
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Celebrated for her embodied vocals and visceral delivery, Coline Creuzot leans into her identity as a strategic and impactful performer on her upcoming acoustic version of “That Feeling.” Cathartic, kind-hearted, and universal, the single calls upon emotions that ring true to the human experience. "That Feeling" takes an honest look at relationships and ruminates on the emotions that arise when letting someone go.
While the original version of "That Feeling" was produced by three time Grammy Award winning producer Troy Taylor (Trey Songz, Whitney Houston) and multi-platinum G Sparkz (Meek Mill, 50 Cent, Lloyd Banks, Young MA), the acoustic set uses dialed back soundscapes to lean into the gravity of Creuzot's vocals while further developing an emotional depth to pair with the thematics of heartbreak, tenderness, and acceptance. The use of melancholic piano, diluted guitar, and ethereal harmonies lifts Coline’s awe-inspiring vocals to the forefront of the track, creating an air of intimacy and genuine intent. The nature of “That Feeling” is meditative, focused on appreciating the highs and lows of a past relationship and moving forward with grace. The acoustic version of the track allows time and space for contemplative thought as Creuzot dives deep into her own subconscious with careful vocal choices and contrasting moments of both power and restraint.
Coline Creuzot has opened for Drake, Keyshia Cole, David Banner and T.I. and has collaborated with icons such as Sam Hook (Ne-Yo, Ella Mai, Trey Songz, Keyshia Cole) and Happy Perez (Miguel, Mariah Carey and Frank Ocean) throughout her career. She has received acclaim from several publications such as BET, Essence, Earmilk, VIBE, and called "an artist at the forefront” by Ebony Magazine.
Ranski Gleechie is back with more heat! The rising Canada based artist follows up his last release, "Proud Of It", with a hot new single titled "Jungle Fever" ft. PGF Nuk. The major rap artist is known for his song with Polo G titled "Waddup". Ranski Gleechie is putting Canada on the map with Toronto-Chicago drill music unlike anything you've heard before. Check out his new hit single now and follow him on social media for his latest releases. We expect big things from Ranski Gleechie in 2023!
The talented artist creates music to inspire those who don't have the same mind set. He adds, "Look for no support until you put work in the game". Check out JuggBaby Rx's new hit single "Next Season" now and make sure you follow him on social media for his latest releases. We expect big things from him in 2023!
Taz is a 17 year old new hip hop artist from Ottawa, Canada. He started singing in May 2022 and now this is his new hot single "She Wanna Know Me". Taz is starting to turn heads in the music industry in Ottawa. He has 8 songs out now on Spotify and Apple Music and all other platforms. Go follow Taz on his journey because it’s just begun and it’s going to be quite the ride.
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Instagram: @tazmuzicofficial
TikTok: @tazmuzicofficial
Twitter: @tazmuzicofficial
Website: http://tazmuzic.com/
Prince Amaho was born into a Royal family in Nigeria, West Africa. In the late 90´s, he moved to Germany pursuing his chances in the Music Industry against all odds. His first worldwide hit single “Rhythm in my Life”, with the Major Music Label BMG, paved the way for his notoriety in Europe.
Working collectively with friends and Partners in the Music industry, Prince Amaho decided in 2009 to form the musical project “Soul Bros”, which has proven to be successful from numerous worldwide - Club Hits and Chart entries with Remake of Hit Songs like: BAD BOYS” All Night Long, Gimmi Hope Joanna, just to mention a few. Their Professional Showmanship has propelled them into one of the most dynamic Club Acts in Europe. More about Prince Amaho, please go to www.PrinceAmaho.com
Prince Amaho's latest Single "Life" deals with the void we dismiss as important in our lives. A call for the betterment of our environmental future in the current global climate
The message is; "Giving hope and encouraging people to better themselves, and take action with steps to progress in their life situation.
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Avalanche The Architect has cultivated a unique sound based on the Hip Hop music he grew up with. His passion and drive are extremely apparent, as he pours his love for music into his songs.
He aims to bring Hip Hop music back to its roots and infuses his tracks with personal experiences, intense lyricism, and bold imagery. He is dedicated to honing his craft and motivating others around him to engage in the process of getting back to the core of Old School Hip Hop music from the 90s.
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Website: www.avalanchethearchitect.com
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/avalanchetherapper
IG: https://www.instagram.com/avalanche_the_architect
Spotify: https://spoti.fi/3G4GPNw
Twitter: https://twitter.com/AVALANCHE_RAP
Busting out of Florida and New York with tight rhymes, $windlaaa is turning heads with his hard-hitting rap tunes.$windlaaa recently released his next project Late Night Thoughts. Spanning 21 tracks, the new project recounts the rough circumstances of his upbringing and emotional setbacks In a recent "On the Radar" interview, $windlaaa discussed the project, expressing his growth as an artist, betrayal in the industry and dating relationships, like his freestyle Lights Off.
The upcoming mixtape is home to standout singles Backend, Skrrt'n thru Traffic and Price On My Head. $windlaaa rolls out the red carpet for a tasteful selection of feature appearances from Trapland Pat, FL Dusa, Lit Yoshi & tracks from top NY producer, Jbanga Beats. Ready to bring his melodic raps to a larger audience, $windlaaa has what it takes to be the next big star!
Late Night Thoughts (Tracklist)
1. Bound 2 -
2. Rock Then Roll
3. Feel Like Trippin
4. Backend Ft Trapland Pat
5. Sum Bout Dat Money
6. Stand Alone
7. No Company
8. Baby
9. Money ft Lit Yoshi
10. Goat Talk
11. What You need
12. Meditate
13. G2G
14. Like Billy
15. Feelings Too
16. Like Harden
17. Foot In the Pot
18. Skrrt’n Thru Traffic FT FL Dusa -
19. Price On My Head
20. Pesos (Famous Animal TV)
21. Lights Off (On The Radar)
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Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/swindlaaa
Youtube - http://www.youtube.com/c/SwindlaaaArtist

The single uses reflective lyricism about the past rappers’ experiences absorbed by gang life to contrast the full-circle success found through focus and music. The music video is chalk full of gold bars, excessive bands of cash, designer streetwear, and luxury jewelry as the four rappers celebrate over the flashing lights of their personal police car. Star2 is a driving force behind the abstract flow as he connects each rapper's story with an ominous, intimidating hook. “Up” represents the struggles that everyone has overcome through sharp sonics and a diverse team of impactful voices.
Like HoodTrophy Bino, Star2 is a collaborator of Soulja Boy’s. On his latest single “New Me”, Star2 brought together Luh Kel and Soulja Boy for an explosive rap performance. Star2 celebrates his journey through music as he began his life in a Thai refugee camp and gained passage to San Diego through a lottery.