Up until I was 9 years old, I would intermittently hear a voice in my head that was not my own. The voice was distinctly different to mine, and always negative. It would self criticise or urge me to do things I knew to be morally wrong. The most peculiar thing about the voice was that it took no effort on my behalf to produce. My own thoughts always felt like there was a process that required effort to bring them to the forefront of my mind, this voice appeared as though it was spoken by another. The sentences felt predetermined like they had already been constructed.
I remember very vividly at 9 years old, becoming very frustrated with the voice. I stood in my back yard, internally screaming at the voice to be silent again and again, and it did. In a flash there was silence, to the point where my head felt like an empty room. I wasn't used to the quiet and that voice never returned. It almost felt lonely in my head.
When I got older I had intermittent bouts with auditory hallucinations where I would hear perfect symphonies, usually at night when drifting off to sleep. They were so clear that they sounded like they were emanating from a radio in the corner of my room. I knew they weren't there, but for some reason they never came with the feeling of fear. I also recall sitting on a bus at the age of 15, and hearing the sound of a crowded room, with about 100 voices chattering away, I was the only person apart from the driver on the bus.
These experiences were always very brief, and few and far between.
My last hallucination was during an intense bout of psychosis in 2015, and was my first visual hallucination. I was walking down a pavement after jumping out my mums car in a crossroads in a moment of frustration and distress with my condition. I was trying to run from myself. What appeared to be a homeless man with a dark complexion approached me, and asked me what was wrong. I explained that I had been sick most my life, and I wasn't sure I had the strength to continue. He looked at me, and smiled and told me 'everything is going to be okay in the end Ren.' I had not told him my name. There was something so overpoweringly sincere about this simple message, which brought with it an overwhelming feeling of inner peace, and in a flash, he vanished.
My rational brain always linked these experiences to what the doctors have told me, that there are parts of my brain compromised by the autoimmunity in my body. That the myelin sheaths surrounding the complex electrical system that conduct my thoughts were damaged and compromised, causing these lucid experiences that I knew did not exist inside the physical world.
The part of me that edges away from logical and rational thought always attributed these thoughts to some kind of otherworldly intervention, that made my thoughts the battleground of some spiritual tug of war.
For a long time I never really acknowledged this part of myself, for with it brought the danger and stigma of sounding like a crazy person.
I decided with my latest release, to the best of my ability, to capture and express this chess match of thought.
Hi Ren comes out in just over 24 hours.
I can't wait for you all to hear it.
"Hi Ren" keeps growing, reaching #18 in trending music videos in the UK, with over 5M listens in the first week alone.
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Raised in the small town of Olney, Maryland MNA (Matthew Nino Azcuy) watched and listened to all of the greatest rappers and musicians during the 1990’s and early 2000’s. During this golden age of music and music videos, Azcuy was inspired by both rappers and rock groups alike, and when he was sixteen years old decided to make his own music. After years of finding his sound, he teamed up with local producer nemo, to make his album “Diamond Dog”. Matthew Nino Azcuy, who prefers to just go by MNA, was born and raised in the small town of Olney, Maryland during the 1990s and early 2000s and has taken great inspiration from the great names of this time for his work as a result. Indeed, his music's unique energy and passion often come from these early inspirations, offering a unique blend of the rock and rap genres to create an electronic-type sound that's wonderfully unique. MNA's first ventures in the music field occurred at the age of sixteen when he first ventured into music writing. However, it took years for him to truly find that one unique sound that he could call "his" - but we're so glad that he got there in the end! In fact, music writing was something of a saving grace for Azcuy, who turned to the comfort offered by songwriting after a difficult period in his life, and he credits both God and his music for helping him to get back on track and strive for greater pursuits. As well as being an accomplished singer and songwriter, MNA has also dabbled in several other creative fields as a professional movie actor and published author, with numerous works of poetry to his name. Some of his previous musical albums include titles such as Black Flag, Paradise, and For You. We wish MNA all the best with his musical career, and with over 1000 monthly listens on Spotify alone, it's fair to say he's an up-and-coming artist to keep an eye on! MNA proves himself to be a rather versatile performer, capable of sincere, emotionally expressive R&B crooning, and casual, charismatic rapping. He often incorporates bits of humor into his delivery, which keeps the vibe fresh and fun.
Mercenary by MNA is an album about the dark fantasy world in which rap culture and the entertainment industry exist. Mercenary, which compares a businessman to a gun for hire, is an album and story that depicts the battle inside of every entrepreneur. How fighting for one’s money, power, career, legacy, and place in the world can often resemble the personal sacrifice of war and soldiers, albeit for profit. This album was inspired by the personal successes and two-year journey of rap artist MNA and his music production company MNA Industries in the music world. "Mercenary" was recorded by City's Best Sounds in Olney, MD and was released on January 22, 2022.
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Jaymellz is a singer, rapper, songwriter, and producer from South Carolina. Formerly known as J_Mello, Jay has worked with names like DJ Smallz, Soulja Boy, and appeared on mixtapes hosted by Gillie Da Kid and Bow Wow. This is his single “High Hopes” A message to his doubters and naysayers letting them know there’s no stopping him.
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Celebrated for her embodied vocals and visceral delivery, Coline Creuzot leans into her identity as a strategic and impactful performer on her upcoming acoustic version of “That Feeling.” Cathartic, kind-hearted, and universal, the single calls upon emotions that ring true to the human experience. "That Feeling" takes an honest look at relationships and ruminates on the emotions that arise when letting someone go.
While the original version of "That Feeling" was produced by three time Grammy Award winning producer Troy Taylor (Trey Songz, Whitney Houston) and multi-platinum G Sparkz (Meek Mill, 50 Cent, Lloyd Banks, Young MA), the acoustic set uses dialed back soundscapes to lean into the gravity of Creuzot's vocals while further developing an emotional depth to pair with the thematics of heartbreak, tenderness, and acceptance. The use of melancholic piano, diluted guitar, and ethereal harmonies lifts Coline’s awe-inspiring vocals to the forefront of the track, creating an air of intimacy and genuine intent. The nature of “That Feeling” is meditative, focused on appreciating the highs and lows of a past relationship and moving forward with grace. The acoustic version of the track allows time and space for contemplative thought as Creuzot dives deep into her own subconscious with careful vocal choices and contrasting moments of both power and restraint.
Coline Creuzot has opened for Drake, Keyshia Cole, David Banner and T.I. and has collaborated with icons such as Sam Hook (Ne-Yo, Ella Mai, Trey Songz, Keyshia Cole) and Happy Perez (Miguel, Mariah Carey and Frank Ocean) throughout her career. She has received acclaim from several publications such as BET, Essence, Earmilk, VIBE, and called "an artist at the forefront” by Ebony Magazine.

Bino will release his debut EP in January 2023 and “Wake ‘Em Up” is the second single on the EP. A powerful song about shifting your mindset, HoodTrophy Bino calls upon his past struggles to help guide him in accomplishing his dreams today.
“You can wake up on different levels,” says Bino about the song and video. “You can become woke about your life – how you want it to be, instead of how it keeps crashing out of control.” The video shows Bino thrashing in bed, having a nightmare. Past excesses torment him, but he finds himself living the life he had always dreamed of - a gorgeous girlfriend (played by K.Shiday), a lit luxury beach house in Marina Del Rey, and close friends celebrating his new house, lifestyle, and accomplishments.
Bino is still striving to reach this dream – he began life in poverty with seven brothers and sisters (thirteen counting step-siblings) where they would sleep in hotels with two beds, a couch, and his mom and step-dad on the floor. “I had nothing growing up,” recalls Bino. “Trauma became an everyday part of my life. My pops is serving a life sentence in San Quentin. My best friend growing up was kidnapped and executed when I was 17.”
K. Shiday lends her voice to the single with sheer magnetism and effortless, charismatic flow. Resonating deeply with the song’s message, the artist confides, “I am rebranding myself. I am independent now and the song and video with Bino appealed to me.” Together, HoodTrophy Bino and K. Shiday create a captivating dynamic, united by the same story of overcoming obstacles through music, determination, and self-expression. The song infuses piano and a music-box back drop to a track with both artists rapping hard to make their fairytale a reality.
Ranski Gleechie is back with more heat! The rising Canada based artist follows up his last release, "Proud Of It", with a hot new single titled "Jungle Fever" ft. PGF Nuk. The major rap artist is known for his song with Polo G titled "Waddup". Ranski Gleechie is putting Canada on the map with Toronto-Chicago drill music unlike anything you've heard before. Check out his new hit single now and follow him on social media for his latest releases. We expect big things from Ranski Gleechie in 2023!
The talented artist creates music to inspire those who don't have the same mind set. He adds, "Look for no support until you put work in the game". Check out JuggBaby Rx's new hit single "Next Season" now and make sure you follow him on social media for his latest releases. We expect big things from him in 2023!
Taz is a 17 year old new hip hop artist from Ottawa, Canada. He started singing in May 2022 and now this is his new hot single "She Wanna Know Me". Taz is starting to turn heads in the music industry in Ottawa. He has 8 songs out now on Spotify and Apple Music and all other platforms. Go follow Taz on his journey because it’s just begun and it’s going to be quite the ride.
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